A GREAT LIFE

I have been dreaming of a lot of things I want to get in life, I want to have great things and gain great people and live a great life.

I dreamed of trying to do everything I want, of breaking the walls that prevent me to explore the things that are offered outside the four corners of my confinement.

Too bad and too good..

Recently, I realized I wont be able to earn that life I am craving to have, no I dont and Im not living a great life no great things and no great people. Instead i am in a constant struggle of this world's unpredictable turn.

Good thing is..God is so good.

ONE DAY..someone KNOCKED ON MY DOOR..i said no visitors allowed..i said stop making noises and go away.

But he seemed not to hear me so i decided to face him and say it to his face.

in my failure to speak first..

"What's a great life by the way?he asked.

could you describe ur definition of a great life?".he keeps on asking me,i was pissed. again and again till I have no choice but to think about answering it to make it done.

thinking....

A great life...okay! Just more and more of what i have now.(here are my fantasies..etc..etc..etc.........)

Are u even listening?

Im not looking at his face, I didnt want to.. I didnt want to see it. But deep in my heart, I sense that he smiles with his loving smile that I couldnt help but feel.

and says to me...

You know...I love you..and you dont have to tell me that you love me too...I need not to hear your response...atleast you know...that i love you...i will do anything for you...even dying, even to be crucified again and again on that cross, I will do just for you to live.

now, tell me again...how great is your life?

tears..tears...

Just let me in, and I wont go anywhere and I wont leave you alone.

Just let me love you even in times when you strongly believe that you are unlovable.

Just tell me your stories and I will listen to every bit of it.

Just say to me your concerns and we'll see how to handle it.

Just let me hear the people whom you think loves you and whom you believe doesn't, I'll be glad to have their hearts blessed.

Just speak to me in your prayers..everything you need to let out..everything you need to tell me...dont be ashamed.My love for you is endless.

Tell me what you want, tell me the people you want in life and I will be glad to wrap them as a present for you, you will not know when or where, just know that i keep my promises.just know that I know you more..more than you ever know yourself..

I will love you till the end..

And the person came in...and left...

He left me with a heart filled with joy, he left me with a heart full of gratitude, he left me with a companion. He left me with everything I need, complete, no less. He left me with a thought..learning and a good-no..better realization..

I dont need my useless dreams/fantasies in life, I dont need to gain great things and great people. Beacause now I am faced with the truth that even without those things, I am living a great life.

This a life saved by the person who loves me, keeps loving me, who deserves but dont ask for a love in return. The greatest person of all. Jesus.

                                                                                                                           -ANDY

                                          -------------MY LOVE IS HERE-------------------