Today i had a just so random day :) ..not really that kind of ordinary..no typical..but RANDOM. it's like having a minute of excitement then boredom comes next..happiness and here comes indifference. But all in all..I really do appreciate this, everything that composed my day is necessary..I love it.
EXCITEMENT:
-yes work day is an excitement.(but fear destroys excitement, i am often a victim of my own clumsiness.funny)
BOREDOM:
-boredom is my great tendency. coz sometimes it's my name.
HAPPINESS:
-I am..well..loving as hard as i can..every circumstance..good or bad(maybe).
INDIFFERENCE:
-I just really don't care a lot about everything and anyone sometimes(and i'm not very proud of it). <--sucks!
TO SUM UP: i love this day no matter how unsatisfied i am with lots of moments and chances.
HE ORGANIZED EVERYTHING! HE, ..yES HE DID!(SMUG)
Friday, April 30, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
TODAY'S message of love FRESHLY DELIVERED.
Today's best is that I've learned that the extent of Jesus' love for us is ENDLESS..to where and whom can we find such love that is forever unconditional, never changing from day to day? everyday he forgives us, embraces, comforts and showers us with so many blessings than we could ever imagine. And all we ever do most of the time is to get upset about lots of things and mostly..sadly..even the simplest thing drives us to anger and impatience. And what we usualy give back to him are doubts? (well..i am saying this because i know and i myself am guilty of that action.)
Sometimes i felt like i can only trust myself..me alone. Then suddenly I realized i am already loosing track..feeling lonely walking in the thorny pathway..anxious, worried...going nowhere..unsure and near to getting lost in the unknown...
But the Lord keeps on saving me..i just prayed and thank Him for everything..that even in my darkest there will be a light for me to keep on walking..safety assured..truly he keeps his millions of promises. It may not be exactly what I want..but I know it's what will make me continue living,.gracefully.
It really amazes me when it bothers a lot to me everytime I did something not God glorifying. not because I am good but because i sense that God is actively working and molding me into a better person that I can be. He loves me a lot that he keeps me aware of my bad habits. Yes, I have hundreds of it. He knows all of it including those that i failed to count.
And also, i see that the Lord doesn't put us in a place where we don't learn or even realize a thing. Wherever we go there's always some difficulty, confusion, enjoyment, mixed and no matter how good we believe we are, we will get degraded. :)
There are always people who will get involved with your life, who will affect you, who will get affected by you, who will influence you, criticize, or appreciate, love or hate you.(don't pity yourself and blame all these negatives to the people around you. Admit it, this is a vice versa story :) the struggle is just different but both needs love).
Everywhere we come to realize something, every people we encounter has its purpose.(Try to observe it :))
As for me, the message I personally get in the story of my life, these are all for me an opportunity to acknowledge the presence of the Lord saying:
"Call me, I will answer",
"Yes that's the way it is because I am the only perfect and nothing else, I am the only happiness and nothing else",
"Listen..that is why I'm here..to love you despite that.to appreciate you :)",
"Don't worry about that so much, I will always choose to love you"
"Come and lean on me,have comfort,let me handle that :)"
BREATHE!SENSE IT!!! HE LOVES YOU MORE THAN THIS WORLD TOO!!
Sometimes i felt like i can only trust myself..me alone. Then suddenly I realized i am already loosing track..feeling lonely walking in the thorny pathway..anxious, worried...going nowhere..unsure and near to getting lost in the unknown...
But the Lord keeps on saving me..i just prayed and thank Him for everything..that even in my darkest there will be a light for me to keep on walking..safety assured..truly he keeps his millions of promises. It may not be exactly what I want..but I know it's what will make me continue living,.gracefully.
It really amazes me when it bothers a lot to me everytime I did something not God glorifying. not because I am good but because i sense that God is actively working and molding me into a better person that I can be. He loves me a lot that he keeps me aware of my bad habits. Yes, I have hundreds of it. He knows all of it including those that i failed to count.
And also, i see that the Lord doesn't put us in a place where we don't learn or even realize a thing. Wherever we go there's always some difficulty, confusion, enjoyment, mixed and no matter how good we believe we are, we will get degraded. :)
There are always people who will get involved with your life, who will affect you, who will get affected by you, who will influence you, criticize, or appreciate, love or hate you.(don't pity yourself and blame all these negatives to the people around you. Admit it, this is a vice versa story :) the struggle is just different but both needs love).
Everywhere we come to realize something, every people we encounter has its purpose.(Try to observe it :))
As for me, the message I personally get in the story of my life, these are all for me an opportunity to acknowledge the presence of the Lord saying:
"Call me, I will answer",
"Yes that's the way it is because I am the only perfect and nothing else, I am the only happiness and nothing else",
"Listen..that is why I'm here..to love you despite that.to appreciate you :)",
"Don't worry about that so much, I will always choose to love you"
"Come and lean on me,have comfort,let me handle that :)"
BREATHE!SENSE IT!!! HE LOVES YOU MORE THAN THIS WORLD TOO!!
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
GOOD morning sunshine!
What's good about this morning? nothing. Except that im still alive..breathing and normally having a heartbeat. The heat is killing my patience and im being reminded of my past few days confusion. Till now I'm still hoping there will be answers to a lot of questions inside my mind. And hey there's one thing good! I realized I have been having poor tasks management.wow..i should be thankful i finally found out that one perfect alteration that im recently into. It's too tiring to be responsible..i hate choosing between a lot of options..i want them all but i only have to choose one!darn this is a difficult life. I wish i would instantly be in a place where I should be with no other choices, just directly go to that place. nothing more to look no other things to consider.
Yep.Exactly I complain too much. It's just..maybe..well just maybe..what i desire most..deeply desire..is so much risky..energy-draining. Do i need more desire so to forget my complaining and just enjoy my chosen path? or do i have to see the other options maybe i will enjoy rather than complain? should i really take the risks? is life composed of too many risks?
Yep.Exactly I complain too much. It's just..maybe..well just maybe..what i desire most..deeply desire..is so much risky..energy-draining. Do i need more desire so to forget my complaining and just enjoy my chosen path? or do i have to see the other options maybe i will enjoy rather than complain? should i really take the risks? is life composed of too many risks?
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
first entry!!
yay! celebrating my new blogsite!!!
ugh-random thoughts keep running inside my braincells.. have so many things that i really want to accomplish..how will i start?????? which one first??! i need a lot of catching up to do..prioritizing and etc.!
ugh-random thoughts keep running inside my braincells.. have so many things that i really want to accomplish..how will i start?????? which one first??! i need a lot of catching up to do..prioritizing and etc.!
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